Where am I?




Ebtisam Elghblawi

Correspondence:
Ebtisam Elghblawi
Tripoli,
Libya
Email: ebtisamya@yahoo.com

About the author:
Dr Ebstisam, our poet and artist, is living under siege in Tripoli, Libya.

I went away asking myself
Blaming myself
Where is myself
Where is my soul, my spirit, my will?
What happened to all of them?
I memorized my past
My choices
My mistakes
My sorrow
My sadness
My regrets
My life went fast
I start seeing the effects of that on me
My features have changed and are affected
I feel my life stopped sometime ago
Everything around me is suffocating and killing me
What a wasted life
A broken heart into many pieces
My morality needs resuscitation, a revival
Any rescuer for the remaining
Missing tranquility and peace of mind badly
Wars on the horizon and non stop
Everything stays as a drawing
I still draw
I still keep drawing
Only lost are those moments where I would feel joy and happiness
And I still look at my features and my life
All just lost with the walk of life
And life keeps pacing widely
Hiding the unexpected in this place
Cloudy horizon

As its a holy month of fasting. People now gather from early night for banks in the morning.



Se e how very overcrowded and women lie in ground waiting for the impossible. Ofcourse militias at the gate and keep waiting.